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ive never been so fearful in all my life and i font get scared. i lost the woman i love 2 months ago. everything seemed to go downhill from there. she came to me one day to talk things through. she needs her space. time to resolve her own head. we have spent time together since but i know i must be strong. let her make her decisions and sort her head out. its gonna be tough and heart wrenching but its something that needs to be done. i just have some hope that things work out. i feel lost without her and empty and alone.
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ive found the woman i love with all my heart. i hate being away from her and cant wait see her again. im excited yet scared about our future however. i want everything to work out and always have that fear that it wont. that something will get in the way and cause problems between us. i trust her with my life and i know she feels the same. i just want clarity of mind over everything thats happening and is going to happen.
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The things I’d like to say to you,
These words are from the heart.
Its heaven when we're together.
Hell when we're apart.

I smell your scent upon my pillow,
Wishing you were there.
I'd wrap my arms around you,
Then tell you how much I care.

I anticipate every moment,
I get to spend with you.
If I could slow time to a crawl,
Then that's just what I would do.

To hear you say my name
To feel your tender kiss
When you are not around me
It’s all of this I miss

To see that smile upon your face
So loving and so warm
I'd never want to hurt you
Or let you come to harm

If i could chose between the world
And spending time with you
You’re gonna be the one I choose
This much i know is true.

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It’s not about being who everyone else wants you to be,
 it’s about being yourself and finding someone who loves every bit of it.


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we live in a world full of hate
dispair is all i see
where love is meant to guide us
to set all our hearts free

we get brought into this world
through no exact choice of our own
we live our lives to the notes
and the guidelines we've been shown

theres nothing to look forward to
we live for the sake of living
we enter this world empty handed
no clothes no items no nothing

we fight because we're taught to
we think its all for peace
we try to right the wrong things
when will the anger cease

they teach about our history
and the wars our ancestors faught
yet they dont learn from these things
they still practice whats been taught

i look around cities
and the places that we live
what human kind has taken from the earth
and that we have nothing to give

we live in revolting buildings
that are nothing for the eye
they think they've done a good job
on structures built so high

why cant we be like other animals
and take just what we need
we live as one society
a culture built on greed

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if i was to leave without saying a word, would you miss me?

If i were to just walk away and not look back, would you care?

If i were to ignore all your letters, phone calls and text's would you feel a loss?

If i were to just disappear without a trace, would you weep?

If i were to pass you by and not acknowledge you're existance, would you lose sleep?
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This Poem I Dedicate To My Best Friend Stitch

sometimes it hurts to see you,
and know i have to leave
to spend the time by your side
when away from you i grieve

to see you smile to hear you laugh
to know youre always there
all these things make me smile
even that i know you care

i can admit just one tiny thing
that sometimes you make me frown
but thats not your fault youre not to blame
its my only fault im down

i get this empty feeling
in my head and in my heart
but unlike when im with you
its only when we're apart

my feelings for you run so true
i love you all the same
i love everything about you
even when you say my name

the way you make me feel inside
all warm and full of love
i feel the fluttering in my chest
not butterflies but a dove

to me you mean the entire world
the universe and more
to see your smile when i arrive
when you answer the door

if i could choose a million things
from them i'd need just one
to have you as a friend to me
but thats already done

i thank you for your warmth
your compassion in between
sometimes i feel im sleeping
not wanting to end this dream

if i had one chance for me
to start this life again
i wouldnt do anything different
i'd have everything the same
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this thing it sits inside my head
hiding in its shell
it sits in there waiting, ready to pounce
ready to strike at the proverbial bell

its hard to come to terms with
all thats in my brain
it jumps at every chance it gets
to drive me so insane

i need some words of wisdom
to drive away this pain
the emotion i hate the most
to rinse it down the drain

i hate when i feel this
i want to let it go
i want to kill my feelings
not one of them to show

i fear its gonna haunt me
until the end of time
like its stalking in the shadows
just waiting to commit the crime
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I don't know how to describe
whats going on in my head
I feel there are things you see
that may not have been said

i feel the space between them
is somehow growing more
like there's something that isn't
being told, just lay it on the floor

my heart has taken over me
it seems its leading the way
im trying not to let it get too much
but there it seems to stay

i cannot control my feelings
they seem to have a hold
i cannot remove what has become
my heart it will not fold

i need some help to get me through this thing i cannot see
i need something to help me set my heart and my head free

Current Mood: lonely lonely

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Because I could not stop for Death,
He kindly stopped for me;
The carriage held but just ourselves
And Immortality.

We slowly drove, he knew no haste,
And I had put away
My labor, and my leisure too,
For his civility.

We passed the school, where children strove
At recess, in the ring;
We passed the fields of gazing grain,
We passed the setting sun.

Or rather, they passed us;
The dews drew quivering and chill,
For only gossamer my gown,
My tippet only tulle.

We paused before a house that seemed
A swelling of the ground;
The roof was scarcely visible,
The cornice but a mound.

Since then 'tis centuries, and yet each
Feels shorter than the day
I first surmised the horses' heads
Were toward Eternity.
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